Who doesn't love Oprah? I grew up watching her with my Mom and then eventually on my own. I just love everything about her and I was so upset when she closed up shop on free TV. I don't get her new network, OWN, with my basic cable that comes with our apartment.
I signed up for Oprah's Lifeclass and thought it was going to be a fully online thing, but I was wrong. So I've been following along (today was lesson 3) online with the little that they give us without OWN to work with. But even with the little that I have, I have already learned so much about myself. I'm still on lesson 2 - letting go of anger, so I'm a tad behind, but I'm taking my time to learn through the process.
What I've learned so far:
- Lesson 1 - The False Power of Ego: I've learned a new way to look at the word "ego" - it's not quite what I thought before. I've let others define who I am because I've allowed myself to believe it. My ego gets in my way every day - in public, socially, with choosing my career - everything is affected except my relationship with Chris. That is the only place in life right now that I know I am being true to myself.
- Lesson 2 - Letting Go of Anger: I hold a lot of anger inside. The biggest issue right now is not having a job still. My ego is holding me back from going and taking any job I can find...it's income, and that's what we need right now. I just feel so strongly about teaching that I feel like if I take another job, I'm abandoning my dream. I know I'm really not, but my ego is taking over my thoughts all of the time and keeping me from what my true self needs and wants - employment. I'm angry for having 8 teaching interviews with no positive outcome - while I gained interviewing experience, a job would have been so much better obviously. I'm angry for the way a few other things went in regards to a job in teaching (long story that I probably shouldn't post online). I know I need to forgive and move on because that ship has sailed a long time ago and there's no reason to dwell on it - or let myself sulk into depression - but it's truly a struggle for me to let go. I believe once I finish this lesson I will be able to let go and move on.
Are you participating in Oprah's Lifeclass? What have you learned so far?