Thank you so much for the words of encouragement from everyone. I honestly didn't expect this response and this wasn't meant to create any sort of "pity party" on me. I just simply wanted y'all to know what's going on and why I'm struggling with blogging. I deeply appreciate everything that everyone has said. When I checked my email after school today, I was completely blown away at the comments and emails I've received with encouragement. Your kind words have truly made my day. It's readers like all of you that keep me blogging. I absolutely love you all.
First off, my husband lost his job back in February. It was terrible. So much stress was put on each of us, financially. He luckily did find a new job this month and started it two weeks ago. The first week was training. The second week he started "on the job". Well, he works overnight. I could not function last week not having him home with me. I wasn't sleeping. I didn't get to see him very much. He'd come home when I was leaving for work and sleep all day, and when I got home we'd eat dinner together and then he'd leave. (I'm not sure why all of that is written in past-tense...it's still happening.) The good news: it's a job. It's full-time. He's on four ten-hour days and then off three. It's only for another month. I'm slowly starting to function without him here. But I pretty much fell apart last week. My bad.
30 (school) days of school left - I'm not sure if I am excited or not. I absolutely adore my class. I love my school. I don't know if I'll still have my job next year or not. Time will tell. (The whole "new teacher" system is terrible.) May is going to be insane though. CRTs, DRA testing, biography reports/wax museum for the parents, rock and mineral show field trip, zoo field trip, my class's town meeting (a.k.a. class play written by our amazing drama specialist), bike/board/blade day, celebrating summer birthdays, etc. I've never felt so overwhelmed in my life. I'm so fortunate to have amazing parent support in my classroom. Every single parent is absolutely amazing and has been such a huge support for me throughout the whole year after everything crazy that happened. (If you're a teacher, please tell me...how do you prep for end of year tests?! I'm so clueless.)
Our apartment = disaster zone. If you've emailed me in the last month and asked for tips on how to keep up with organization, I'm not avoiding you. I'm just looking around at my mess, wondering how to answer your question. I'm not very good at it lately to tell you the truth. We need to clean. I need to go through the incoming paper basket. I have two months of magazines sitting on the floor. I have been good at keeping the entry clean so it looks like we have a clean home from the door. And I'm great at turning the Scentsy warmer on every night so it smells clean.
My life isn't as planned out as you may perceive. It used to be. I love my planners. It's been two months since I've written anything in either one. What a waste of money - or so it feels. Maybe when school's over I'll get back to it. (Here's hoping.) My home management binder, blogging/etsy store binder, and loan binder have all gone to crap. It may all seem hypocritical, but it's not. I'll get back to it when school's out and I can start over. You'll see.
I have some amazing ideas for projects to complete this summer. (I have owned a home I'd be all over new posts all of the time...some day.) I also have plans for the blog design and etsy store additions. I also have some good ideas for summer month challenges. I think I'll be able to handle keeping up this time. =]
I'm sorry but I don't care if you hate that I have some advertising on my blog. Please don't email me and tell me how terrible I am for accepting some advertising. I definitely don't have as much as many other blogs. The extra income (which isn't much, honestly) is a nice compensation for the hard work that I put into this blog. When I don't put as much work in (like recently), it shows in my stats/advertising income. I don't accept anything that doesn't relate to my blog content or my interests. I seriously turn down at least 10 inquires a week because I don't feel like it fits my blog. So, please, don't harass me for accepting some advertising. Thanks.
I want to run in a marathon...and finish (that's the key). I'm willing to start small, but I want to do it. I lost weight a year ago for my wedding. Then, when I didn't get a job, I gained it all back...plus 5 pounds. I guess I was self-destructive. I'm determined, again, to lose 15 pounds by August. This means less time on Pinterest, I'm sure. (So sad.) No reason to not get in shape. My weakness is salt. I can do without sweets. Anyone else in the same boat? Wish me luck.
And finally...I know everyone can sympathize with this...
I feel like I have no time. Seriously. Where do my nights go? I come home, spend time with Chris before he goes to work, then I work on the following...in this order (lately): school related stuff (creating documents, searching for documents, lesson planning, etc.), completing assignments for two online professional development courses I'm taking (I had no idea how time consuming they'd be), doing the dishes, blogging (if there's time), then trying to sleep (failing miserably for 2-3 hours a night, until I finally exhaust myself). Tell me, how do all of YOU do it? Especially those of you who are moms as well. One more thing to add to the plate. I don't know if I'll be able to do it someday. We'll see what happens down the road.
Thanks for letting me vent. I hope you all have a wonderful Tuesday. Cross your fingers for me that I'll make it through the next month...and be able to blog at the same time. I miss having things to write about.